Saturday, September 02, 2006;
♥ 11:12 AM
I really have never ; never seen so many departures in one week . 3 !
No , I dont mean that i went to the airport to see people go on a plane and disappear for a few
days , a few weeks , a few months , a few years . No .
I see people go for a rest and then never come back . Not physically .
I guess you'll understand when ue sit down and think deeply .
Thats the downside . Its worse than the witching hour .
Another downside is well ,
Jo-ann Jo-Li Ann is going to New Zealand . Gr . So ! I'll sabo ue Jo-Li Ann . Hahaas .
Mye resluts wont cheer mae up . :
English : Band 2 ?
Maths : 75
Sci : 68 [ dang deprovement ]
MT : 73.5 [ no improvement , no degrading either ]
Yeaahs . And i was so totally right . I friggingly screwed up on mye compo . Although mye zuo wen wasnt too bad , i guess .
And then , like . I think i have asthma . I was told i had bronchitis(?) , whatever that is . I dont read into medical stuff [ i'll just get more upset ] .
So , didnt finish netball trng last week . Cos like , really couldnt breathe . So , Jo-Li Ann walked mae out . Thanks Rayna too . ;]
Then , not going for the carnival .
And now , Im realising that theres more to life then giggles , happiness , forever and ever friendships , rock music , celebrations and all those other things that have been crossing mye mind for the last 4 years . Everything now just seems to be ; in a whirl . Beyond mye imagination , beyond mye grasp . Totally beyond what i thought i could handle .
I never realised that life could turn upside-down within moments . Never have i ever thought that way .
I feel lost . Whye is it that all mye friends have is " oh , gosh , mye bro/sis always fight with mae for the comp " ? I dunnoe . I never got to experience that . Really , the series of obstacles consist more than just achieving straight As , getting a gold trophy , struggling in the prescence of fear .
Now really , whye am i telling ue ppl all this ?
Ah shucks .
So anw , teachers' day celebrations were pretty much ok . Mr Vai and Mr Elmi started singing This Love . Then like , the school joined in . It sounded more than just the choir [ kidding ! ] .
I purse mye lips , sit back , and think of whye i find it so hard to put a smile on mye face .
Gtg now [ not really , i just wanna end it here ] . Buais .
flown away
